would you marry you?September 13, 2007
i am fat. i know that for a fact. i am not attractive, externally. i won’t say i’m attractive internally either. i’m stubborn, i’m a coward, i get angry really easily, i hate people who make my life hard. if i were someone else, would i marry me? i don’t think so.
even so, i am attracted to handsome, hot man. who doesn’t? but my definiton of handsome, hot man seems to be out of the world (or at least, out of Malaysia), because handsome and hot are bard pitt, george clooney, brandon routh (superman), horatio caine (not david caruso, horatio caine the character) and donald flack (csi new york). but, would i marry them? i don’t think so..
one of my friend (who is not so ‘good looking’ according to my scale of handsome and hot) said that her (very pretty) girlfriend used to reject a much more good looking, wealthier, smarter man (in other words, the most eligible bachelor laaaa). he doesn’t understand it. i told him, we tend to admire people ho seems perfect on the surface, but when it comes to having a serious relationship or a commitment, we look beyond what meets the eyes. it’s not the look, the charisma, the money etc (although in my case they DO matter the most), we seek compatibility and security. we envision spending a lifetime with this man or woman, is it workable, if we fight will we be able to mend it, will he/she makes me happy, will our children be beautiful. or sometimes, when our hearts tell us that he/she is the one, we stop thinking at all, and go with the flow.
having said that, would i marry me? i still think, i wouldn’t. but i hope george clooney would want to marry me and stick with me forever. *sigh*..