.. defensive ..

my ‘almost-ex’ once told me that i am an egoistic person, which, i couldn’t agree more. i dun think my parents brought me up to be so defensive all the time, but i guess living with inferiority-complex for many, many, many years has taught me that sometimes i can’t just let people hurt me. to prevent that, i build ‘walls’ around me, so that not just anybody could come near me without me permitting it. those very few who got access inside the wall are only the people whom i trust with all of my heart. once the trust is broken, i guess he or she is out of the wall forever. i’m not that forgiving in that sense. i lost friends, but i guess i’m okay with that. i just don’t want to take the risk of being hurt again. i don’t know .. i’ve never let anyone who’s opted out to get in again. i guess if i have a company, my job everyday would be firing people all the time just because they pisses me off. *sigh*

..KyoSakuraParis..

this is ‘KYO‘. in the anime “fruit basket, KYO is the neglected animal of the chinese zodiac, which is the ‘cat’, or ‘neko’ in japanese. so, why KYO? because i always feel neglected (like KYO) and i love cats!

and these are the cherry blossoms, or ‘SAKURA‘ in japanese. the sight is just, fabulous!

 

tadaaa!!it’s ’PARIS’!! definitely not the city paris! it’s paris hilton, who, is confident, if of nothing else, of whatever she has on and in herself.. when most people hate her for her overrated, overexposed and over everything attitude, i love her!! she looks good in almost everything. and she can shops as much as she wishes! and checkout the hair, it’s so hot! i’m gonna get that style too!

hence the ‘KYOSAKURAPARIS’

gorgeous!!! why don’t i find them here??

you make me so hot, make me wanna drop ..

my lovely danny (i’m really crazy!!!!) this one is for you …. huhuiiiii …

 I wanna lock you up in my closet when no one’s around
I wanna put your hand in my pocket because you’re allowed
I wanna drive you into the corner and kiss you without a sound
I wanna stay this way forever I’ll say it loud

Now you’re in, and you can’t get out

You make me so hot
Make me wanna drop
It’s so ridiculous
I can barely stop
I can hardly breathe
You make me wanna scream
You’re so fabulous
You’re so good to me baby, baby
You’re so good to me baby, baby

I can make you feel all better, just take it in
And I can show you all the places you’ve never been
And I can make you say everything that you’ve never said
And I will let you do anything again and again

Now you’re in, and you can’t get out

Kiss me gently
Always I know
Hold me, love me
Don’t ever go

angry week (as always)

it is my angry week .. i am angry all the time .. at everybody .. no wonder my skin wrinkle so fast. i just feel like shouting at everybody, for no apparent the silliest reason :

1. my sister .. i am still mad at her

2. my room mate : for going to the course and leave me with tonsand tons of bloody works …

3. my boss : for .. a lot of reason

4. my friend : for not waiting for me to watch the movie (when she knows i am a movie addict) ( and when we (me and other friend) actually postpone the plan to watch the movie because we want to wait for her, but she doesn’t wait for us .. or even tell us she’s watching the movie with other people)

5. myself : for being so selfish and mean and bi*tchy and intoleratable and unhappy with other people’s happiness and tremendously a pain in the @$$!