Mana Sani .. Mana Saniku …

last saturday and sunday were spent travelling from KL to Kuantan and returned. Kuantan don’t seem to be a very far away land when you travelled with the most happening companions on earth that is midesmidesmides and cachah .. we talked all the time about everything imaginable under the sun. and we sort of have a new theme song, in which the only line we can sing is ” mana sani … mana saniku….” oooopppsss .. if ‘anybody’ should be angry or jealous, my advice is : don’t be. the song don’t mean a thing ( i can’t believe the same song i kutuk caci maki the other day has become a theme song??? … sigh …) it’s just a (sorry to say) good laughing material ahahahahaha ….

all in all, last weekend, plenty friends of ours has gotten married. zahack and bebeth, aini and izuan ( 2 of my friends married men named izuan already), kerk and who-that-girl-i-don’t-remember-her-name. toast to them all. may you all become the happiest couple, the best thing for each other, and may you live longer to be the greatest parents and grandparents to beautiful children and grandchildren!

“isteri hamparan dunia, suami langit penaungnya,

isteri ladang tanaman, suamilah pemagarnya,

isteri bagai kejora, suami menjadi purnama,

bila isteri beri hempedu, suami tabah menelannya”

by the way, the streets are empty, and the office is less, errr … livelier .. oohh, it’s school holiday .. no wonder ..

CINTA PERTAMA

dengan ihsan cachah, aku dan beliau telah pergi nonton wayang bertajuk “cinta pertama”. dengar tajuk pun tau citer indonesia, citer melayu tajuknye akan berbunyi seperti zombie kampung pisang, sembilu, sumo-lah, dan sebagainya. aku harap citer nie macam citer-citer indonesia biase yang aku tengok, kater-katernye penuh puitis dan riak muke pelakonnya bisa membuatkan air mataku berlinangan dan mengalir (apehal aku jiwang nie???)

“Unlike other tragic love stories, there is no purpose in this film as it fails to connect the tragedy and the story. In “Cinta Pertama”, however, it is clear that Alia is suffering from brain cancer and that she is going to die soon. Therefore, the following scenes are flashbacks that tell us her feelings for Sunny. Of course, there are some subplots in between, but they do not seem sad to me.

Forget about special effects. This movie goes for something as simple as rain to get us into the mood. It is drizzling and raining throughout the movie as Alia likes rainy days. As for cotton buds, which are used to bring out a warm and romantic feeling, the effect is just the opposite. They just look ridiculous, especially when Alia is spending time with Sunny.”

this is one quote i got from the website. frankly, i quite agree with him/her. the story line is romantic, but not romantic enough, it’s romantically depressing. indah tapi menyeksakan. plotnye very slow, and not touching enough to get me crying ( i was sobbing very hard when i watched HEART). and the movie don’t have a specific theme. poor abi, if she doesn’t want u, come to me handsome!

 the most depressing thing about the movie is the “sunny” song. no offence sani-san, but it’s ridiculous! like sunny, sunny … aiyo!!

huh, i’m done blogging for today. or perhaps for the week. KERJA MEMANG TIDAK MENIMBUN!

Housemate Crisis

i’m moving to a new house .. my first problem is a new house with an affordable rent, and the second one (which has now become a major problem) is looking for a housemate with ‘matching’ personalities (matching here means we both can mingle with each other easily, can talk and laugh, not sit together at the living room, watching tv in awkward silence and when we do actually talk, it sounded as if we are talking as one CEO of a company to another CEO, very formally, with grammar and all). so there.

i went around bangi and found a very nice house, not fully furnished but got tv fan tv rack nice langsir fully tiled floor, and it is situated on the 2nd floor. perfect, don’t have to climb the stairs too high. problem : the rent is too expensive for me to bear on my own. 550 a month is a lot. regardless of gaji naik or not, it still a lot. that does not include the astro and utility bills and all. but if i have a housemate, we can already split the rent and the utility bills. if she wants to watch tv, then we can share the astro bills as well. less spending on housing there. and to pay the deposit on my own, aiyo … sangat mahal! with a housemate, the deposit can still be splitted.

then got to see another agent who only want to show me the house at the 5th floor, because he said i wanted the cheapest house. hello, i’m looking for a suitable house which i can afford, okay, not the cheapest. fine the rent is cheap and affordable. i can still bear 250 or 300 a month, but at the 5th floor? it’s good exercise, but NO! so perhaps – rejected.

another friends of friend agreed to join me in my quest for a new house, because they want to rent a house as well. problem is, they don’t want to stay in bangi. they prefer kajang. Kajang is like a faraway land. even though the rent is cheaper there, but i have to mark up for the gas and perhaps the toll. so maybe NO ..

someone also asked why didn’t i go and stay at seri kembangan? ok, it is  still smelly there (sometimes), only one way to putrajaya (will be very heavy traffic), the road is still very sunyi ( me handle functions, got back very late at night sometimes) and the flats have parking problem. so, again, NO.

where else? serdang? i grew up a UPM student, got tired of serdang already, so, no thanks!

putrajaya – precint 11 will be like flat hijau once it is fully develop, parking problems, so, no!

i know, someone would suggest me to just join anyone who is looking for a housemate, but i have an experience of renting with a perfect stranger, and i don’t like it.

and don’t ask me why i want to move out. i don’t want to move out, i just have to. i love my house (meaning : house, not housemate) a lot, but what can i do?

right now, pretty big crisis. perhaps i’ll end up under the stairs of midesmidesmides’ house. who knows .. huhu ..

Hadapi Dengan Senyuman

frankly aku tak tau pun lagu nie cemaner bunyinyer .. tapi sebab lirik dier sangat bermakne, aku post la .. ia memberi semangat kepada aku untuk meneruskan hidup ini .. walaupun pahit untuk ditelan kenyataan tu, tapi kadang-kadang aku kena redha bahawa Tuhan dah atur perjalanan kiter atas dunia nie. mungkin sekarang aku terseksa tapi di masa depan aku bahagia. mungkin Tuhan tak nak bagi aku kenikmatan sekarang sebab Dia tahu, mungkin aku akan jadi sombong, lupa diri, aniaya orang lain dan segala macam lagi yang tak baik. Allah Maha Adil, rezeki ada di mana-mana, mungkin depan mata tapi dalam bentuk yang kita tak nampak. Jadi, aku akan terus berjuang (walaupun terseksa dan terpaksa menderita dalam diam) dan menghadapi setiap hari dengan senyuman (tapi senyum tutup mulut sebab gigi aku tak cantik wahahaha …) 

Hadapi dengan senyuman
Semua yang terjadi
Biar terjadi .
Hadapi dengan tenang jiwa
Semua… Kan baik baik saja

Bila ketetapan tuhan
Sudah ditetapkan
Tetaplah sudah .
Tak ada yang bisa merubah
Dan takkan bisa berubah

Relakanlah saja ini
Bahwa semua yang terbaik
Terbaik untuk kita semua
Menyerahlah untuk menang

Terlalu Cinta

lagu sedih abad ini .. lagu rossa sumer ala2 jantz2 tu nak kat dier tapi tak boleh dapat kat dier .. samer la dgn kisah hidup aku .. cume mungkin jantz2 tu actually tak nak pun kat aku .. huhu .. ayat keramat di opis minggu ini : gelap masa depan .. tabah ..  

jangan dekat atau
jangan datang kepadaku lagi
aku semakin tersiksa
karena tak memilikimu

ku coba jalani hari
dengan mengganti dirimu
tapi hatiku selalu
berpihak lagi padamu

mengapa semua ini
terjadi kepadaku

reff:
Tuhan maafkan diri ini
Yang tak pernah bisa
Menjauh dari angan tentangnya

namun apalah daya ini
bila ternyata sesungguhnya
aku terlalu cinta dia

Miserable Thursday

I HATE MY LIFE, THIS WORLD AND ALL THE PEOPLE IN IT AT THIS POINT OF TIME ..

I FEEL LIKE BURSTING OUT ANGRY WORDS AND SCREAMING AT EVERYBODY WHO CROSSESS MY PATH AT THIS MOMENT .

I FEEL LIKE PUNCHING AND KICKING EVERYONE WHO DARE TO LOOK AT ME..

I FEEL LIKE CRYING LIKE A DAMN BABY ..

BUT I’M TOO ANGRY TO CRY ..

WHY IN THE WORLD THIS THINGS HAPPEN TO ME ON THE DAY I HAVE THE REAL SPIRIT TO WORK?! WHERE IS THE JUSTICE IN THIS WORLD? DO I HAVE TO BE BEAUTIFUL AND GEDIK TO GET WHAT I WANT? OR AM I JUST UNLUCKY TO BE BORN INTO ANOTHER GROUP WHO DON’T SEEMS TO BE ANYBODY’S FAVOURITE AT THIS TIME? AM I STRIVING TO WIN A BEAUTY PAGEANT RIGHT NOW? I’M NOT!!!!!! I WORK IN A PLACE WHERE ALL ASPECTS OF A ‘GOOD’ EMPLOYEE HAVE BEEN TAKEN INTO CONSIDERATION : SMART, HARD-WORKING, GOOD INTERPERSONAL COMMUNICATION, RESPECTFUL, OBEDIENT, MOBILE AND ALL SORTS OF OTHER CRITERIA. I THINK I PASS ALL EXCEPT THE PART OF BEING BEAUTIFUL. DUH .. I HAVE NEVER COMPLAINED EVEN THOUGH I FEEL LIKE DYING EVERYTIME SOMETHING I DON’T LIKE BEFALLEN ME. I STILL DON’T WANT TO COMPLAIN, BUT I HATE THE WORLD!

CAN I JUST DISAPPEAR? NOBODY WOULD NOTICE ANYWAY …

TUT.. TUT.. TUT.. TUT.. TUT.. TUT.. TUT.. TUT.. TUT.. TUT..

wednesday marathon .. what am i doing?

this is wednesday, out tv marathon day. the schedule are as follows :

8.00 pm : American Idol – i never missed this series until the week chris richardson my beloved was kicked out by the american voters .. sigh.. but the finalist of the series ( jordin, melinda, lakisha and blake are gooooooooood and have the desired qualities of great singers – lakisha was so fantastic that simon cowell kissed her in one of the episodes!) unlike malaysia, who voted for “Line Clear” .. huh.. HE DANCE LIKE A DAMN STICK!

9.00pm : Heores – i don’t need to say anything about this ..

10.00 Crime Scene Investigation a.k.a CSI – Grissom is still on holiday but i think the temporary guy is cool in his own way ..

and as always, i’m spending the night at midesmidesmides .. it’s awkward to watch tv with my housemate (because the tv is hers) even though we have been living in the same house for almost 9 months!

 to make it short, i love tv programmes. if there’s no tv around, i will crash and burn!

In The State Of Denial

This is not my laziest day .. in fact, i am lazy most of the time huhu .. but i think now is the worst .. i have 1 paperwork (sort of) to present tomorrow, 2 claims (mileage expanses and all kinds) to be sorted out,  nicely arranged before i can send it to the finance people, a trip @ visit report, a course report etc etc ..  God, why am i so lazy?? aiyohhhh ..

 just now went to a Famosa resort to recce for a seminar venue .. it was so vast! the sales people mr Faiz (he’s cute but not my type .. quite sotong (pardon me!)) showed us to all the places. i was stupid for putting on my highest (mind you, HIGHEST!) heels .. damn my foot need a massage ..

now i’m tired. i want to rest. pull stop!

I can win AF toooooo!

u know what, i think for AF6 i’m going to sign up for the audition. and i’m sure i’ll end as one of the finalist. i’ve discovered that the secrets of achieving this are :

1) Maintain the way i sing right now. i know i don’t sound as pleasant as mariah carey or carrie underwood but ok la (simon cowell will call it garbage anyway, but maybe not the AF’s criticisers .. they’d rather say, i think this is not your best performance .. whatever).. whay am i so confident? because someone there who sang just as -ehem- ‘biase-biase’ one like me get to be the finalist!

2) Dance like a stick – it’s proven to be true .. u don’t have to dance like a swan, a stick is okay .. i’m not a good dancer, but i know as much as the aerobick moves, some basic salsa and some ‘pop’ poco-poco .. surely i’ll do better than a stick won’t i?

3) Get sick on the second last week before the final concert- well, even though your name was on the bottom of the list, whatever effort you show when you are sick, people will see that u’re putting extra effort and of course, they will vote for you ( we are a generous and caring society .. excluding me).. let’s put it this way. when you are healthy, the effort you show will gain you 15 marks, but when you’re sick, the same effort that deserved 15 marks will be upgraded to 100 marks, because you look so pathaetic .. damn ..

i’m sorry malaysia, brunei .. i don’t want to condemn you for voting the student i don’t like at all, it’s your money, it’s your choice (by the way i didn’t vote. i used to vote once for adam (i lurve him) but i realized that he’s not going to marry me if he wins just because i voted for him). but i am a little bit dissappointed as whoever vote for my favourite student were kind of just wasting their money because others are voting perhaps out of sympathy to that particular student. huhu ..

so i guess, i’ll sign up for next AF .. perhaps you’ll see me in TV next year with the tagline “line clear giler babas!!!!” (versi gedik-gedik sikit ..)

and oh, did i mention, in order to be a finalist, u at least have to look a bit like mawi? maybe i’ll have plastic surgery next year to look like a ‘girl’ version of mawi ..

jaa ne ..  syawal, akak tetap menyokongmu, muahsss …